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Honesty time: I love Kaleb so much and I am so proud of him. However, there are times when I become exhausted. One night this week was one of those nights. Nothing crazy happened, just the sheer exhaustion of trying to educate others, work with Kaleb, worry about Kaleb, and honestly heart hurting as I watch him work so hard. It hit me hard. It left me exhausted, aching, and in tears.

It’s hard to sometimes take a step back and remember that it is okay. Kaleb is going to do, what Kaleb is going to do, when Kaleb is going to do it. To remember not to compare Kaleb to anyone else. As the saying goes, don’t compare the sun and the moon, they both shine when it’s their time.

His teachers have no idea how their daily reports, their stories, and their love mean to me. Today we got to school and found out that today and tomorrow his class will be getting around with walkers, wheelchairs, crutches, etc. While he serves as class leader.

I think he liked showing out and showing how he rolls! 😊


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